*Hong Kong Independent Film Festival*
*Taiwan/HsinChu/KaoHsiung Independent Film Festival*
電影預告片 Movie Trailer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KnYBXLH6Gs
後來想起Chet Baker一首歌《I Fall in Love Too Easily》：
I fall in love too easily / I fall in love too fast
I fall in love too terribly hard / for love to ever last…
翌日，跟監製張偉雄在Starbucks喝咖啡，他問感覺如何，要不要回應？但他說可能會幾老套。九月三十日開鏡，我惱了幾天，得監製啟發，劇本改了又改，想起活地亞倫曾在《Manhattan》說過：「I’m old fashioned!」，也就心安理得老老套套拍下去。
Producer: Bryan Chang
Screenplay & Director: Pierre Lam
Music: Janet Tong
Starring: Spencer Lo, Amy Ng, Wai Lok, Sini Kwok
Story: We are the generation of lost – we lose hope and love. After the devastating incidence of Sept. 11, who can bear with losing love again? First-time director Lam Chun-Yue comes up with a love story of 2 boys and 2 girls - a story of stalking, peeping, rejecting and seducing - with links to his depressive feelings towards Hong Kong at that disastrous moment. Trumpeter WILLIAM loves his instrument as well as the sexy object SIN. He has blamed himself for puzzling between his religious belief and spiritual desire. Sin is a surprisingly pure yet sexy girl who only wishes to share her first love with a colleague, WAI. Wai chooses to walk out of this relationship as he had a secret commitment with a trumpeter named Vi. All these interwoven relations have been eyed by a lonely office lady, RAIN. She enjoys being an outsider without realising that she herself has become deeply a part of the game until one night. That night, all these youngsters have to face the unbearable lost of their fragile love.
My journey to comprehending love starts with Young Werther.
I’ve once experienced a similar situation of falling unflinchingly for an un-requited love. The struggling indulgence had drowned me for two full days. Sheer spiritual exhaustion and sleepless nights had drained every bit of me until I heard Eason Chan’s Golden Times on the radio late at night, then I came to a sudden relief at dawn. We met in a restaurant where I told her, “We may never have the chance to spend time together after tonight…” and then tears rolled down her face.
That is a typical story of a love life in
I’ve tried to understand the very nature of this kind of love: Does it happen because the object of desire exists, or, is this purely self-indulgence? If love is meant to be sure, why is it constantly labeled with an expiry date? Why can’t it be eternal?
As said in A Lover’s Discourse by Roland Barthes, “Frustration would have presence as its figure (I see the other everyday, yet I am not satisfied there by: the object is actually there yet continues, in terms of my image-repertoire, to be absent for me). Absence is the figure of privation; simultaneously, I desire and I need. Desire is squashed against need: that is the obsessive phenomenon of all amorous sentiment.”
That is the point: desire is squashed against need – from here I seemed to see a drowning attitude of self-fulfillment.
When I used to linger in bars and pubs in Central, I’ve heard many interesting stories of city love; There is a man who collects her hair left in bed; and there is a woman who collects watches from all her ex-boyfriends. Therefore, fetishism is understandable.
Then it came to my mind Chet Baker sang I Fall in Love too Easily:
I fall in love too easily / I fall in love to fast
I fall in love too terribly hard / For love to ever last
The gentle yet repetitive lyrics have further deepened my perspective towards the fragile side of love. Gradually, I saw the story forming into a screenplay in full shape. I kept asking myself the same question, “Is it possible to fall for someone who you never met?” My answer would be, “Why impossible?”
Under the city skyline lives a flock of sentimental yet sexy Bohemians. They wander through the day and night, wearing pairs of eye filled with messages, gazing into each other at every brief encounter. These characters are now transformed into the lead roles of the screenplay. They interpret their experience into private, subjective storylines, and they artificially create every possibility while longing for love to happen.
As a result, I’ve been influenced by Young Werther, Roland Barthes, Chet Baker, with stories of squashed desire and fetishism awaiting.
Then the disastrous Sept. 11 incidence hit the world with shocking tragedy – adding more sleepless nights for me. The next day I met with producer Chang Wai-Hung, comparing thoughts on the incidence. We thought about responding to the disaster, however, Chang found it old fashioned to do so. The shoot then commenced on Sept. 30 with the inspirations I gained from Chang. Although I kept amending the script until the very last moment, I suddenly remembered Woody Allen’s line in
“I’m old fashioned” flashed across my mind and then it clicked! I am happy being old fashioned, as I belong to the generation of lost.
On the night of Sept. 11, I wondered what would I do if that was the end of the world. Now I have an answer for it.